Hello fellow contributors!
I’m Kauã, “kaua0908”. I came here because I want to clarify everything, redeem myself here on Viki.
For those who don’t know me, I’m “kaua0908, the abuser” - For approximately 6-7 months I was the one who caused trouble for everyone, I was the one who did a lot of wrong things, and I was the one who had several accounts with fake names, deleted . (I know! It may sound obsessive, psychopathic on my part! But yes I did it).
I didn’t come to try to defend myself or try to blame anyone, it’s all my fault and mine alone! A colleague of ours, @nimi_stepinac had the subtitles, previously, deleted because of a big misunderstanding! (I still don’t know if it was because of me, or if it was Viki’s mistake regarding her). Anyway, I’m assuming this too! I did a lot of wrong things in hope to solve my problem with more problems! I will explain.
“I found Viki, because I wanted to watch ‘The Kingdom: Legendary War’, at first I just wanted to watch, and nothing else. Until I started to get impatient because I really wanted to watch the reality show, but there were no subtitles. That’s when I learned about the platform, and I saw that I had the opportunity to help and improve my English, since at that time my English was intermediate! I tried to get into many dramas as a portuguese subber, but because I didn’t have anyone around to help me, I was very lost and I didn’t know what to do! When I managed to get into my first team, it was Viki Pass, and I was frustrated, but I didn’t give up. Until I found another team! And I started to help. It came to at a certain point where I was afraid to press the button to confirm the subtitle, because there were things I was in doubt, but I was still ashamed to ask! (In the meantime, I had met a lot of people and had read part of the subber manual from viki. So much so that I created a group on discord to help the Portuguese community!) So, when I started to be afraid, I started using Google Translate, to check my subtitles, it wasn’t to translate and stay that way, I wanted to confirm to know if I understood right or not; But over time I learned that everyone had their point of view, and that was okay. When a Moderator from a team that I was part of, came to contact me saying that I was using GT and that I was going to withdraw, I was scared! And I started to be rude! Very rude, as I felt threatened and pressured, I started having disagreements with everyone within the discord group, so much so that I even deleted the group!”
“I was feeling bad, and I had managed to be Moderator of my language, on the reality show I was watching, The Kingdom: Legendary War. I only had 3,000 subtitles, I didn’t understand anything, I just wanted to help, but I was put on the team as Moderator; when actually I just wanted to know why the subtitles weren’t ready yet, for an episode that was released on “May 1st” and we were on the “May 7th” and nothing has happened. Anyway, that’s no excuse! Moving on…
I was sad and I had this moderation, that’s when a lot of people started texting me, saying it was a big step, and that I had to leave reality because I had a lot to learn! And they asked me to recommend them as a Reality Moderator instead of me! I felt even more frustrated, upset, angry…everything! That’s when I lost my mind and simply asked them to stop asking me this and stop being insensitive.” (I know I was really rude! But I didn’t know what else to do, and my way of dealing with all that , it was just insulting others! I know they didn’t know what was happening to me, but even so, I was wrong to yell and be rude!).
“Until then, they started exchanging information between them, telling to report my account because I was rude, very rude! And stuff like that!
And then they pressured me so much, and they wouldn’t stop texting me, then… I freaked out and deleted my account! Weeks later, I felt bad and wanted to go back to Viki, as here I felt safe and was an escape from my personal life. That’s when I came back, but even so, I was scared and didn’t want to join Portuguese teams since they were talking about me, so I created an account where I translated into other languages! (I really knew and still know some things in each language I translated, but I was still using GT! I used it because I didn’t know the language, but I didn’t want to go back to the Portuguese community because I was afraid. If I stayed somewhere else, no one would judge me! But it wasn’t like that. I was discovered, reported and my other account had been deleted, and so the fake account loop began! Every time I was discovered, I deleted my account and created other…”
(Guys, I want you to know, that I really apologize, if I hadn’t been so stupid, if I hadn’t acted so much on impulse, none of this would have happened, and no one would have been harmed! All the time saying this, because I really changed, and I won’t do it again, that’s why I came to say this in public, so that everyone can say what they think and that I feel lighter to move on and show that I’ve changed! - - If you want to get mad and call me names, feel free, if you want to judge me or just ignore me, feel free! I want to go back to being a normal contributor, who helps with dramas, and does the best to deliver the best work! I don’t want to live in a place where, all people hate me and report me all the time. I swear I’ll get better. – During this mess I also tried to contact VIKI STAFFs, at the time I contacted Jeslyn so much but she didn’t answer me, and I started to think that I was being ignored because of what I did and was doing).
Again I say, “I’m sorry guys”, I came to clarify because I really want to be on good terms with everyone, you may not trust me, but I’ll show you that I can help, that I’m not like that anymore, I’ve changed!
I don’t know what else to say, “I’m sorry”.