I'm back!

Hello friends!
After almost five months of hospitals and rehabilitation center, I’m back home today.
My life was saved (it not always obvious, my son got a phone call from the doctor telling hiim to “be prepared” not only once but four times, as covid brought not only low oxygen but also kidney failure and thrombosis, as well as a staphylococcus aureus infection). The doctors did a good job, and so did my pranic healer friends with their incessant therapies. Unfortunately my mum, who got sick at the same time as me, didn’t make it.
I got a second chance, for which I’m grateful and happy. Now I can more or less walk again (that’s why I spent a month at the rehab center), and take care of myself. My fingers have also gotten used to writing and typing again, and I can eat normally. Of course long covid has “gifted me” with some heart, lung, hair and vocal chord problems, which I hope will get better, but it’s not 100% certain.
Looking forward to starting work on viki again, but also many other things available to me, which I had taken for granted but are not. Looking at death in the face is an eye-opener in many ways. I got back home and I teared up, felt like getting down and kissing the floor, the walls. The cat looked at me in a strange way, and I saw that my son had gotten rid of all my stuff in the bathroom, filling the shelves with his own shaving and beard care stuff (grrr!)
He’s happy I’m still around but in reality, life could have gotten on without me. Where I used to work, three people have been pitching in to cover my tasks, and they seem to be doing great. Nobody is irreplaceable. Thankfully. Because if it wasn’t this time, some other time I’ll have to follow that grey lady.
She appeared to me like a thin spinster, a bit like the quiet, religious seamstress who used to come home when I was a teenager. Not scary or anything, but sort of vague, indistinct, like a charcoal drawing that someone has slightly smudged with an eraser. She didn’t even look at me, but it was understood that I was supposed to follow her. I then put both arms crossed in front of my chest just as they do in Korean dramas, and shouted: “No, not yet. I have two children. Next time”. So she turned and left without a word.
I don’t know when this happened, I was heavily sedated for almost two months, in the ICU, having all sorts of visions. Then after waking up, I spent another month looking at the ceiling 24/7, hands and feet tied to the bed, my mind still full of the things I’d seen, without knowing which were true and which were hallucinations, my body full of little tubes and patches, completely unable to move and of course unable to speak, because of the hole in my trachea.

Okay, on to more pleasant stuff now. I feel very enthusiastic about life, I want to enjoy the years left to me to the fullest. I still have to spread my mothers ashes into the Aegean sea, host a party for all of her friends and then move house. (ugh!) Then travel to Italy to meet my father, who’s old and frail and I don’t know for how long he’ll be there. And of course I’ll have to get dancing again. It will be busy, but I’m looking forward to it.

Well met, my dears!


Welcome Irene i am so happy for you :smiley::slightly_smiling_face::smiley:!
I missed you a lottttttt

Edit: i have read the whole post now… I don’t know what to say… I am sorry :sob:


Dear Irmar,
I am sorry, that you lost your mom, but really happy that you are still around. The infamous C took a lot from us, but on the other hand gave us the chance to re-think and re-appreciate the gift that is life.
Hopefully you will get to see your dad once more.
As you still have some issues with your health, take your time getting better and better, it’s a marathon, no short track. I know you have the mindset otherwise you wouldn’t be here anymore, so maybe with time and diligence your heart and your lung will be getting better.

I wish you the best :bouquet:


Hi Irmar :wave:

It’s wonderful to see you again. I am so sorry to hear about your mother. My sincere condolences.

I can’t even begin to imagine how you coped through it all and with it all. Your story is extraordinary. To reach the shores of such an immense and overwhelming journey is a mammoth accomplishment. In all honesty, I don’t think I’d have gone the distance.

Welcome back :grinning:


What is Viki without you? Welcome back!


Very sorry for your loss and everything you’ve been through :pray:.

It’s lovely to hear from you. I think many of us kept thinking of you.
Great that you’re enthusiastic about all of the things you’ve got planned.
Hope you get to do them soon :blush: .


yeeeaaaaaaaaa!! you are back! so good to hear from you! hope you will recover more and more each day, and yes I know how it feels when some of your stuff has “disappeared” kids think they are doing what’s best. but anyway you are here! so glad!!


I’m so glad you are back. And wow you are such a strong woman that you pushed through all this. And lucky the lady agreed it wasn’t your time yet. I’m so sorry for your loss, it must have been so hard being so ill, fighting for your own life and then lose your mom :frowning:

Take your time to get better, to grief and to enjoy life to it’s fullest.


Welcome backkkk!! :smiling_face_with_three_hearts::smiling_face_with_three_hearts: You have no idea how much I missed having you around here.

I’m so sorry for the loss of your mother, and I hope you will be able to settle everything as soon as possible. You are a survivor, a fighter, and I’m so glad you’re back :heart::heart: Hoping to see you around for a long, long time! :blush: And I hope you recover completely, with no long term side effects.

After all you’ve been through, I hope you have a nice time of recuperation, rest, and reunions. Stay joyful and strong!! :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:


Welcome back :slight_smile:
My condolences to you and your family.
You were missed around Viki.
Hope you keep getting better and better. Take a good rest and don’t forget to visit us whenever you can.

Warm wishes! Sending you good vibes :sun_with_face:


Welcome back!
I read the whole post and I’m really sorry about your loss but happy for you. It must be a really tough experience but I’m glad you are ok now and recovering little by little.
Hope you keep doing great and keep healthy and happy.


Welcome back Irmar!

I am so sorry for your and your family’s loss and suffering, and relieved to hear that you are well on your way to recovery.

Yes, none of us are irreplaceable, but at Viki, we sure felt your absence.


Welcome back irmar!
It sounds like you have been through a lot in the past few months. I am very glad that you are feeling better and I hope you heal fully. I am sorry that you lost your mother. May she rest in peace.
I wish you all the best and I hope that you and the people you care about stay healthy and happy :heart:

Glad to have you back and see you around :hugs:


Sorry for your loss, Irmar. I hope life gives you to strenght to go through these hard days.

I wish you and your family health! Hope your recovery goes smoothly and you feel better each day. Take good care of yourself! Welcome back! :purple_heart::black_heart:


What a terrible ordeal you have gone through. I’m very sorry to hear about your mother, but what lovely sentiments you have come away with in regard to life and our place in it. I hope your own health continues to improve and that you are able to do all the things you have planned. Welcome back!


I not knew what to say when reading this but i sorry for what you had gone through and condoles ( can’t spell) for your mom welcome back .


Welcome back!

Sorry for your loss, condolences to you and your family.

Glad you pulled through and is healing though. Looking forward to seeing you around the community and in the discussions.



Welcome back, dear Irmar. :heart: I’m very happy that you survived and are with us again.
I’m also very sorry for your loss.

I can totally imagine your anger about your son moving your things from the bathroom, but I think it was just his way of coping with the situation.
Even if life could have gotten on without you, it sure would have been less fun for those left behind.


I am glad to see that all of the ordeals you have gone through have actually left you with a very positive outlook on life and plans for the future. I hope you will continue healing or at the very least find a way to live with the parts that may not fully heal.



Dearest Irene,

We missed you very much and welcome you back with a huge hug!

I echo everyone’s sentiments above. I am so very sorry for your mom and for what you had to endure. I love your positive attitude in the midst of terrible ordeal. You are a strong woman, and a fighter! I know another lady who was in a similar situation as you a year ago, and she is doing very well now, and was able to attend her daughter’s wedding and witness the birth of her son’s child since her recovery.

May you recover swiftly and fully, and enjoy the life to the fullest.


So happy to see you again :smiley: