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- I have bad memories about ranking. I didn't explain them above because it is personal, but I'm willing to explain it so you can understand me.
I love my parents.
They lived a trauma in their past when I wasn't born yet.
It marked their lives and they always wanted for us (their children) to live healthy, happily and well (like any caring parents), even more because of the struggles they have experienced.
So when it comes to studies or even hobbies, they always wanted us (their children) to give the best we had.
At school, I worked really hard. I had to, I didn't want to deceive them.
When I went to junior school, high school, college, we had ranks. When I wasn't in the top ranks, my parents would tell me to work harder, they were really behind me, they relied on me. In short, they had great expectations and I felt guilty when I couldn't meet their expectations. I just love a lot my parents. It's normal, they just did what they thought was good for their children and I'm cool with it.
And if I can enjoy my life today or ask myself some questions about my life, I realize it's thanks to their struggles. They didn't have the luxury to think about the same questions I'm asking myself today, them, they had to survive. My parents compared to me had different levels of everyday priorities.
So my childhood was quite normal and peaceful.
In college debut, it was really bad and hard. We couldn't make real friends because of the competition and the selection was based on ranks. It was a lonely period for me.
So I dislike competition or ranks. Might be because of my past, my disposition to it or maybe just me. It was not fun anymore.
I also dislike that people see my worth basing themselves on my rank (or my contributions or my badges on Viki for ex). Is my value = rank?
I also dislike positions or titles because of the possible difference of treatment. I like to be treated normally, not with deference.
Society doesn't consider a lot others without a rank or homeless people.
When I was young, I was forced to play piano. It was not what I wanted to do, but I've come to like it.
I had one piano professor who kept me asking to repeat, repeat, repeat and repeat over and over again, until I played it almost perfectly. She was a strict teacher, so it was not unusual that some students cried or sometimes, our hands could be hit. Nothing hard, but it was just making you jump. So my perseverance / my stubbornness in some things (no matter how ppl see it), I think a part of it is coming from that.
I dislike PVP, I prefer PVE. You can check my character "Nivynien" on the mobile game "Pocket legends" (I can change the name to Piranna if people don't believe me). I don't play it anymore, it's been a few years back but the character is still there. I played that game and you will see 0 kill in PVP (Arena or CTF) and only kills in PVE (Dungeon). I picked a mage because I like mages and ones of the spells I like are: healing others and revive them. Because I found these spells really useful for teammates in a cooperative mode.
I prefer to work in team against the npc or guild battles. But I always need to feel that I'm in a team, not against 1 player in particular. So yeah, I prefer collaborative games (just my preference).
I don't hate the concept of PVP or PVPers either. I had friends PVPers and it's just a matter of taste of how you like to play a game, I think.
The most important thing is to enjoy the game for each one (but we all know pay to win games and in such games, stuff for PVP are expensive with real life money or in-game money).
Back to Viki:
On Viki, we meet people who see you as a "top volunteer" and so respect you for that, but only for that. I don't want to be respected for that.
If I were to be respected, I want to be respected because I am who I am, because they know me for who I really am, because they got to know me through many talks.
Some will "use" you or be nice with you because you contribute a lot since you're in the "top volunteer". They will only respect you or see your worth because you're in the top of that list.
And sometimes, you will trust some people because you think they respect you for who you are, but no.
Here, I don't try to be negative or generalize. Not everyone will think that or will use you, some volunteers are just really nice and warming. I've met true friends who respect me for who I am and who knew me since my very first or second drama on viki. And you need to meet more people like that on viki.
If we see all the sides of it, good or bad, it's not all glory for some people, though it can be for some. It's not what it always seems to be.
I don't say we should erase the ranks or it's not seen as a game, but for me, with my past, I don't see it as a game, worst it was changing the game into something else (for me). That's why I asked not to appear on it when this feature was released.
I don't say it's the same for everyone.
In games, we pick to PVP or PVE. If you play PVP, you'll be likely ranked and you'll likely wish to be ranked higher.
But on Viki, if I contribute, I'll be automatically on this list, I don't have a choice in appearing on it or not.
The option has not been activated yet, so I'm waiting for it to be activated. I don't contribute for a rank, I contribute because I like it.
And the thing is: you have to contribute more and more to win something finally. For the win (fame, rank or gift), it can push you to contribute more. The numbers have an influence in the mind of some people and it's the same effect in PVP ranks, sometimes it goes to the head. I don't want it to go to my head. I'm afraid of losing some of my freedom, a part of myself in this list or behind a number. I don't want to be ranked for my activity, just let me contribute like before.
I don't say it's bad for everyone, but it's good until it does become an obsession or "the goal" of the activity.
I play to have fun, of course it's cool if in PVP people are ranked first, but don't forget to have fun (and sleep) and what you're looking for on Viki, why you came here in the first place.
Is it to be ranked? Is it to find fame? Is it to ask for moderations?
I think for most of us, it was: to have fun, to share dramas or to help.
And that's all I need to know when I contribute.
2.As for why I have been number 10.
In the post "A man who can't get married", you can check. I told that my real life work is full from November until Mid-May (this year at the beginning of May, because I had finished my work 2 weeks earlier by spending more nights).
So if during May (and not from November-April), you see me contributing a lot more, it's because I have more time and because during the period of November-May, I couldn't contribute as I wanted to on my side projects.
The 3 side projects I worked during May were old dramas and a created content (dramas where volunteers are lacking or sometimes, you're alone):
Pink lipstick (you can check on the conversation of books, you'll see that I'm telling to anna that I have to finish Pink so I can help her new moderator in subtitling. Because she told me some subbers are new and the edition sometimes is heavy. We don't want to discourage new subbers, nor editors, so it was a good idea that they took new and not new subbers to balance the work.
Pink lipstick is an old drama I had since a long time ago. I like this drama and I wanted to finish it. So the increase in my contributions is, in reality, a catch up act from the past few months and wanting to finish the dramas I've begun. And since I'm the only subber in my language for that drama and that I wanted to finish it, hence the increase.
Prince First Love: this drama, it's an old drama we were waiting with my friend to be able to subtitle it, because the English subtitles were absent before. We love the actor. But due to some events, I haven't subbed it as I should be subbing it. I can show you the date and the PM.
So I contacted my friend for that to know if I could continue subtitling it. I was actually catching up and felt that I was giving up on my friend for that drama, which is not good.
Itsjinakim: this created content: I have received a message from a subber in my language because they had finished the translation, but they were blocked because the next episodes were not translated in English or segmented. I can show you the date and the PM.
Finding volunteers in English or segmenters for that kind of channel is not easy. Most of the time, it's rare to see someone.
So I just wanted to give a hand in segmenting and subbing in English, because it can allow my team to continue.