Scared of making kimchi? XD You know that you'll be the one to eat kimchi and not the contrary, right?
If you fail making kimchi, you can always begin again. I have bad experiences in cooking but overall, it was fun and great memories! Cookies like stones, crispy rice (or uncooked?), but you have sometimes surprises and turn a caramel sauce into delicious caramel candies
Living in Asian families is not the same than living in western families because of, not rules, but traditions, a different culture.
I'm curious, what type of things do you do to make people around you think you're crazy?
Be kind to you and do yourself a favor: take a breath and take a break.
Sometimes, you need to take a break, from people around you, from the world, from your friends and be in your own haven of peace. When I'm tired of everything or have the blues, I just take a moment for myself and listen to music or I just read, I just sleep, I just look at some old recorded videos during holidays or look at some happy pictures or I just go out with family knowing they won't bug me on some matters. I know that some people cry, write or draw or dance or do a creative work or do some sports, either it can help you focus on something else or either it helps you put into words / moves / tears what you can't say out loud and that wants to get out.
You know, each of us had sad moments. But as time goes by, you forgot or you learn to live with it or you heal, even from breakup, even from death of a relative, even from difficult moments you live. Life goes on.
When I was studying music, my teacher at this time asked us:
If you fall on the ground, would you stay in the middle of the street forever?
Then he says, "No, you get up and you continue your way. In music or in life, it's the same."
There's a time when you'll get up or someone or people around you will help you get up so you can keep on walking.
There are many ways to help the world or to help people around you, you don't need to go far away, giving some directions to someone, give your seat to an old lady, give some food to stray cats or some biscuits to homeless people, visiting someone at the hospital, listening to someone, healing someone, playing with children and put a smile on someone's face, teaching / educate people so they'll help the world in turn. Or you can go far away. There's also the bad help, burdening someone.
A long time ago, I saw a documentary on Mother Theresa at school. After watching it, it made me think (other than "Wow, this woman was something!"):
If you really want to help the world, you have to become stronger yourself if you want to give strength to people around you.
I want to believe that we have the choice between being sad until the end of our life or use this time to be/become happy. It's up to us!