Christmas means different things to different people. For some, it is a religious season. For others it is a cultural experience. For me it is a time to feel extremely grateful that I am alive to see the winter holiday that is full of hope (while at the same time full of enough anxiety of different kinds to cause some folks to want to do extensive kimchi slapping!)
At least the colors are approprate.
Nine months ago, after being excessively careful and compliant regarding “the rona,” I was coming out of the hospital as a survivor of COVID, blood clots on the lungs, pneumonia, and atrial fibrillation. I ended up with an extra diagnosis of mild congestive heart failure (caused by COVID). I had had an encounter with my own mortality that left me shaken. I did not know if I would be able to lead anything close to a “normal” life again.
I have spent nine months butting heads with doctors (well, yes, we could change your meds but why when they are working the way WE want them to?) . . . and nutritionists (don’t worry about salt but worry about salt) . . . and physical therapists (don’t walk more than twenty minutes a day exercises, exercise for twenty minutes a day) . . . and social workers (you need some housekeeping help for a couple of months but you don’t qualify for that because you don’t have Medicaid).
I was referred in August for counseling to help me get a better handle on how my COVID experience has affected my self-image and ability to maintain a daily routine . . . and I am waiting for a first appointment in January 2023.
Nevertheless, I have managed to get to a place where I have energy and focus and am almost back to normal when it comes to planning and executing a routine daily schedule.
I have managed to “claw” my way back enough to work on subbing for After School Club; I am not quite back to the level of energy that would allow me to enjoy a late-night Viki watch party. Maybe by the summer.
I really do believe that being a part of the Viki Community has helped me in my recovery. The humor, the dedication, the shared love of dramatic excellence as embodied in “Asianese” dramas–all of these things have helped me keep going and thinking positively about my present and my future.
Just want to say thank you for being a unique part of my life on planet Earth.
And Happy Holidays!
(I don’t want a pony, just a stocking full of gimbap!)