Talking of smoking to get high, it segues nicely to this topic, a dream I once had and this song (or just the part where the gospel choir sings the backing chorus)
A non-smoker my entire life. Life was pretty normal around the time of the dream, not going through a crisis/worries or anything. The dream went something like this.
I was in a room and all around were people sat on the floor leaning against the wall. One guy was smoking a joint
and when he took a drag he’d pass it to the person to his right, who would then take a drag before passing it on.
This went on around the room and with each pass, I reached out to take the joint
but it was never handed to me, so with each pass I would get a little hurt and upset. This went on until I couldn’t bare being ignored/not being accepted and ran out of the room in tears into the streets outside. In the empty street (no cars or people) I was crying from what just happened and felt utterly dejected.
A girl came out from an alleyway, she had a very notable white sweater with very large horizontal bands of light pink stripes. She came over and embraced me and began to sing very softly “Anytime you need a friend, I will be here” as she sang it felt as if she was charging me, that there was a transference of Love in to my very soul and I felt an incredible sense of being loved, oneness and contentment. When she finished the verse I said “Thank You” and she continued to sing, I tried to sing along with her but in comparison I wasn’t very good.
When I woke up I had tears rolling down my face and felt very at peace. Throughout the entire day I could feel emanating from within that ‘energy’ that was transferred into my very core, completely overwhelming me with a sense of peace, LOVE, wellbeing, joy, contentment and just about any other words I can find to try and describe the feeling I was experiencing. Even sounds were overwhelmed by it and made anything I heard seemed muffled like I was hearing underwater as my focus was very much “within”.
The girl in the dream is one that has appeared in my dreams a few times. Always the same approx. 8~10 years of age and always with the same distinct 1920s bob hairstyle that’s been ‘hair of gold’ through to jet black but always instantly recognisable as being the same person whether she’s at the forefront of the dream or milling about in the background with no interaction, but always happy at her appearance. There was nothing out of the ordinary about her (apart from that one time she had hair of gold), no “there’s something about her” in her presence, she didn’t glow, was super pretty, the true definition of grace, nothing. Every appearance and interaction right up to when she sang had been so incredibly ordinary. Then BLAM! Who knew this deceptively ordinary looking girl had the freakin’ power of God behind her! With the ability of transferring love from inside my dream to have it manifest in my waking reality.
Some of the songs here, you can see why they’re special for others. Be it they’re beautifully sung and melodic or have some powerful message behind it etc. yet Christian or gospel songs, despite combining both doesn’t do anything for me. Even this song, though it showcases Mariah’s incredible range, hitting highs that causes dolphins to beach themselves, this track is pretty ‘meh’ for me, but touches the heart and SOUL? In a round about kind of way, DEFINITELY!